April 4 – return of Sienna

So I’m on Yahoo this morning talking to random friends and guess who messages me…WTF!

Sienna.

I was not expecting that. I was caught off guard, shocked, frustrated and happy all at the same time. Wonder why she did it…? The conversation was very brief and I tried to keep my answers short and sweet. No more suckering me into the black hole of dream land!!

I did tell her (although I think she was probably already offline) that she can’t be doing that…it throws me for a loop and fucks with my head for a short period of time. I’m very much trying to get past her..maybe she can’t get past me 😉

After that little episode I immediately text Stacey g to see how she was doing. Anything to keep my mind off other shit!

More to come later.

April 3

Stacey g and I talked on and off all day. She was having a party with her family but was nice enough to take time out and say hi quite a few times. Can’t say I like or dislike her yet…but she seems okay thus far.

Other than that I had a low key day…not much to write about or jerk off to.

April 2 – Stacey g

So…Tonya is upset since I’ve been blowing her off. Oh well, I don’t really fucking care. For once..my life is going to be about me!

On a lighter note, I did meet this girl “Stacey g” a while back. She’s a bit younger than me 😉 but she seems to be really nice and sweet…and her body is…well, pretty f’in awesome! We talk and text daily. She’s a photographer…haven’t seen her work yet so I’m excited about that since I live pictures and stories behind them.

I’ll keep you posted as we talk more.

April 1 – Erin the Red

Happy April Fools Day (no this post is not a joke)!  I actually had sex today…not with my hand, not with a hooker…the nearly 7 month bad luck streak is over! I just wiped the sweat from my head although you can’t see me. Which of the two girls did I choose from? The new piece of ass, of course…Erin the Red! Initially I didn’t think I’d get to see her due to some crazy ‘electrical problems’ LOL but it all worked out. Around 12:30 I left work, drove to her house, walked in the door, down the stairs, around a corner and to the bedroom and went at it. It was intense…no words were said (I’m serious..just moans…Ohhh, Ohhh, Ohhh) and it got wild.

It started off by me grabbing her tits…they were surprisingly nice..and her sucking my dick. Her mouth is quite petite and she could not fit a lot of me in her mouth..but it still felt good. After a few mins she began sucking on my balls…ding ding…nice! All the while I’m telling HER what to do…I’ve decided I want to be in full control this meeting. All I know at this point is what she looks like, where she lives and how much she likes my dick :)..not a bad combo if I do say so myself.

So the oral lasts for a while until I’m really worked up, I slap on a condom and slowly slide into her tight and very wet vagina. When I say slowly I mean reallllllly slow until I’m halfway in..then, just to surprise her I ram it so hard she screams. I can tell at that point I’m bigger than what’s she’s used too…and she actually tells me that to confirm (kinda makes a guy feel good).

I start her on her back so I can see her eyes rolling back into her head, then we switch to doggy where I can really go deep. After some pounding, ass-smacking (yeah I left hand prints for her hubby to see) and hair pulling…she cums really hard. How hard, you ask? Let’s just say it was so hard that it forced my dick out of her…

All that sex (keep in mind its been a loooong while and I’m very much out of shape) was building me up too. I could literally feel my balls filling with at least 20lbs of cum! Erin the Red has already cum quite a few times now and I’m getting to the point where I feel left out. She begs to be on top of me but I throw her back down on the bed and say “No, I’m in control this time”. Now I’m really pounding her cause it’s the home stretch and I just want to finish the race…thrust, thrust, thrust, faster faster as she screams…damn it! she’s coming again!

My turn…I pull out, pull off the condom and she tells me to cum on her pussy. I tell her to spread it open for me…after a few strokes…SPLASH…tons of cum everywhere. Whew…I needed that.

After laying there for a bit, talking about Sienna (yes, Erin the Red is a reader of this blog too;)) we go upstairs and I head back to work.

I’d like to say I said something clever or whatever to her…but we both just wanted to fuck and that’s how it was left. I did clean up in her bathroom which was nice…else I would have smelled like ass for the rest of my day at work. Next time I’m hoping she has pump soap instead of bar soap…haha

To be continued…as weekly sex to keep us both regular is anticipated.

 

March 31 – no news is good news

I haven’t heard from Sienna in day or so and it’s okay. It really helps the forgetting process. Out of sight truly is out of mind, right? Enough of that boring and sad mess. Let’s move on in the healing process. Healing = Sex (sometimes).

So tomorrow I’m supposed to meet crazy ass Tonya again for sex…she’s literally begging me for it at this point. I will admit I’ve been reserved about it and playing hard to get due to my recent bout with “shaky Sienna”. Ohhh, what the hell…let’s go for it!

I tell her yes but I want to make sure she’s cleanly shaved down there…you know what I’m talking about haha. I do have standards 😉

In the mean time I’m also talking to this other woman on yahoo…lets call her “Erin the Red”. This woman is married, has kids and fortunately lives VERY close to me. Somehow I got lucky and someone from above was watching out for my blue balls. She tells me she can also meet (as in “fuck”) tomorrow. Wow…every since I dumped Sienna my options seem to be opening up. Does that cancel out the hurt? We’ll see…

March 30 – the apology

Yesterday was a mentally exhausting day and I probably didn’t handle “the divorce” of Sienna and I as good as I could have LOL.

For that reason and that reason alone I did talk to her very briefly to apologize. It was late at night and I promised myself starting the next day (midnight – which was in a few mins) I would stop talking to Sienna for good so I could move on without her!

I made my amends, and precisely at 12am March 31st we stopped talking. Probably for the best right? I know after reading all this shit and drama (I’d be exhausted too)!

Whew…I was actually kinda relieved although I was slightly heartbroken at the same time. I hate conflicting feelings…stupid bitches!

March 29 – valere Sienna?

Pardon my Latin but I needed some kind of dramatic heading.  I’ll keep this post short and sweet since I’m quite a few days behind.

Today is a bittersweet day. What do I mean? After many long and somewhat meaningless conversations with my Sienna (kind of makes you want to sing my Corona, huh) I think I decided its best to call it quits. Why, you ask?

Simple…she knows how I feel, I know how she feels and somewhere in the middle is that crazy mother fucker called timing. She’s not ready, I can’t sit around and feel this way about someone and it not be reciprocated and all while my balls are turning blue. So…argument, harsh words, the end…I think.

Oh well 🙂 C’est la vie (sorry, had to throw one more language reference in there today).

March 28 part 2

If your anxiety has kicked in over my last story you’ll be happy to know”My” Sienna and I have been talking for a bit on and off tonight.

Pretty quickly I can tell something is wrong with her. Using that lump 3′ above my ass I ask her to tell me what’s going on and I’ll listen. What can I say..I love the crazy bitch.

She tells me about how she’s at a point where she needs to make a life changing decision about staying with her husband or branching off. Apparently this fucker has been doing better and trying hard and all that B.S…after years and years and years. I tell her “if you do anything, get out of this unhealthy relationship”.

I know she’s not convinced because she keeps talking about how he’s “the safe bet” and she can tell how his personality has changed. Ugh… once again same story different guy. I never thought I had to worry about this asshole to be honest. BUT…I really don’t. I want that girl to be happy and smile, I do.

So, I spill my guts to her and tell her I know its a big mistake and that she needs to put herself first for once and take back her life. She’s always putting other people ahead of her and she needs to be a bit selfish now. I think my exact words were “I know you care a lot about people..its great. but once in your life think about you. From all you’ve said (if it’s been true)..this is not the relationship for you; its just not.”

We’re still talking and I don’t know what she’ll decide…I just hope she is wise enough to make the smart choice for her. It’s gonna hurt either way, but it needs to happen. As much as I hate not being her man, I’ll be there to support her when she needs it.

Wow…maybe I’m not such a bad guy after all..? Nahhh

March 28

Good news readers and pervs, the orgasm-less streak is over.

Wow, I was kind of up later than I wanted last night chatting with Tonya. Keep in mind I was super bored and having a shitty day. Today was a rough because of that..I stayed tired and it really wasn’t worth it. However, the day did improve.

Tonya wanted to meet me at lunch but I was busy and pushed it back later on during the day. We met at a gas station and drove to the park (no there were no gay men banging each other in little cars…that I’m aware of) where it was quite secluded. We were in my car for a bit talking (keep in mind this is the only woman other than my wife and Sienna who’s ever been in it) when Tonya kissed me. I was kind of thrown off because I was still dwelling and whining over the fact it was not Sienna there. I actually had that in the back of mine most of the time Tonya and I were together but it slowly faded away towards the end.

We hung out for about 1 1/2 hrs and as I told her I needed to head back to work she grabs my cock. YEP…right out of the blue. I’m guessing she didn’t want me to go. The reason being was she gave me a bigger clue when she quickly unbuttoned my pants, unzipped it and started stroking it. At this point I wasn’t thinking about anything other than the ultimate goal of finally cumming from interaction with someone other than my own two hands.

So she strokes and talks dirty asking me how it feels and if she should put it in her mouth…hmm let me think…OKAY! It didn’t sound like such a bad idea. I did “kind of” feel bad that I was doing this with someone other than Sienna but to my recollection she said to me once before “go ahead because you shouldn’t have to wait if I’m not ready to do it with you”. What a champ she is!!

So boom…mouth on the cock it is. She starts slowly, almost teasing the head and then gently biting. Somewhere in there I remember pulling her hair fairly hard (its okay she liked it). After a few mins of licking, sucking and teasing I’m ready to cum…no shame here, it had been going on 7 fucking months..so I was ready.

She said “don’t cum in my mouth”.

Are you fucking serious? What’s up with women and that? LOL Where am I supposed to cum in my car when I have to go back to work? On my clothes…? No thanks. Instead she threw me a curveball and said I want you to cum down my shirt on my tits. Okay… WTF just happened? I’m thinking…is this even legal? She has to go back to work yet she wants this, in fact, she is practically begging me to!!!

Who am I to turn down a cute girl who wants my cum down her shirt…after all I had plenty of it to go around.? So, without further a due…whoosh and splat! Here is my mountain full (I’m not kidding) of cum on this poor girls chest and already soaking through 3 thin shirts…I couldn’t help but laugh..but at the same time it was kinda kinky and hot.

Shortly after that I give her some napkins (I didn’t know what else to do) and head on my way. By the way immediately after that she texts me and says “thanks” lol and that she wants more.

When I get back to work I nearly pass out from exhaustion…hey now, I haven’t cum in quite a while so it took a lot out of me!

That’s where Tonya and I stand as of now…maybe we’ll talk tomorrow. Who knows.

March 27

Pretty boring day actually… lots of emotion and worries outside the realm of Sienna.

Did I even talk to her today? Sure I did…we rarely go one day without talking to each other..although I can see that being the norm in the future. Once again we chit-chattered about the small stuff. “How are you”..so on and so forth. We even cracked a few rare jokes until the conversation got more serious.

You see, I was already in a shitty mood for reasons she only knows (but she didn’t know until the end of our conversation). Things once again turned serious and once we get into “serious” conversations..we both get defensive. So I did my best to cut it short and sever all emotional ties as quickly as possibly BUT not before I asked her another jackass question:

What am I to you, Sienna?

I thought to myself quickly..WTF are you doing “Mr. Incredible”? Before she had a chance to respond I asked her not to. I said “Some things are better left unknown”..ah yes, classy…maybe even Frank Sinatra like. Haha.

Anyway, that’s that for Sienna.

I did text with Tonya for a while in the evening but nothing seemed to quench my thirst for happiness today. She’s funny and at least seems to remotely care about me…so that’s a plus.